dreams of a life time

We lie.We lie to each other about how it doesn't matter, we lie about how it doesn't change us, we lie about how we feel.We lie about everything. Do we lie to make ourselves feel better or do we lie to pretend all is well? Do we get sense of complacency when the world around us believe our lies? Life without lies has become like a  sea without salt. You don't know if it exist s or not. Lying makes you try to believe something you desperately want to believe but that doesn't make it the Truth. it just makes it a comfortable lie. YoU lie to yourself about how the hollow in your stomach is gonna disappear and how life is gonna be full again. YoU lie to yourself when you wake up in the morning about how today is gonna be different and how there's gonna be no lying, but even then you are just lying to yourself. Does it stop? Do u get back to being you with minimal lying? (I say minimum cause saying "no lying "would be a lie again) Do you learn how to let g

I have reached a juncture of my life where within a year a lot of decisions have to be made. Unlike the usual obsessive planning I do for my life,thinking about the next couple of years gives me the creeps. Never has it been this confusing.When I was in tenth it was study for boards and get into ISC, when in 12th it was get good marks work for entrance and get into medicine.Every year from then on, was just study to get to next year.Then post MBBS it was entrance all over again but all those times there was never any major confusions regarding where I was heading towards. It was always working towards getting a good career & getting married to sam  but now both are enroute, I have no worries that my dad is going to throw the gauntlet down and stop me form marrying sam (cause its already done and they seem to like him more than me these days :O :I) But now i have so many options in front of me, staring at my eyes, willing me to pick one and not regret it for the rest of my life.D

It has been a custom which  i have set to write something in and around my birthday. NO it does not mean i am self obsessed (my detractors be warned :D) I am just the kind who likes birthdays.There are 2 kinds of people in the world, the first which includes yours truly is the kind who believes in celebrating birthdays, however old you become.How does it matter if u are 2yrs,6yrs,26yrs or 62 yrs?! Your birthday is and always will beYOUR birthday, even if no one else is happy about it, you should be celebrating the blessings you have with all pomp and glamour (doesn't that make an for excellent excuse for cutting cakes and getting gifts? :P)Not to forget, is the second kind which includes yours truly's TRULY(Duh' Sam u fools :P, my husband, for the even slower ones :D)who doesnt seem to want to make any deal out of his birthdays :O. But i can not obviously let that be, i do my part in doing something (it is never upto what i want it to be like, but he is like 3000miles away

In my 25 years of being a social bee ( regretfully i admit my vices :D) i have met umpteen number of people,Be it relatives,friends, parents of friends,acquaintances,teachers,random people(the list could go on for some time! i love talking to new people and obviously everyone likes me too :D) but never have i come across some one who has inspired me so much as i have been in the last one and half years. And u ask""pray what happened one and half years ago? i joined post grad (dude you should know that by now!! :D) I have been inspired to learn, to be a better doctor and a better person as i have never been.A life spend without having met someone whom u adulate, with reason obviously ( i am obvously sensible!:D) is a life incomplete or so i feel now.The passion for knowledge, the commitment for work and the humility of his actions makes me a die hard fan.Rarely in life will you meet people of this genre, they are of a generation which is disappearing with the present, but w

So like all the'brides to be'i was also terrified and a bag of nerves.Everone kept saying how Marriage is this BIG deal which changes your life overnight and makes your life totally different.I had been a happy & content girlfriend for 5 years and a fiancee' for a year after that.Obviously there were changes in my life since I started dating Sam 6 years ago and wasn't naive to think life would be the same as when I was 19 and when I am 25. All the changes in my life had been smooth like a calm ocean and there had been no waves to capsize my boat.Sam had become my steer on my boat and we had been sailing smoothly bar some ripples ofcourse. So what was this Tsuami everyone had been scaring me about? :O I had been a girl who was suddenly supposed to become a women overnight! I thought I was strong enough in adversities but marriage seemed like an unnecessary addition to my list of worries. The question of 'to do or not to do' passed fleetingly through my hea