dreams of a life time

Moving on has been always reasonably easy for me. Be it changing schools from a small city to big one or going for college in a different state and that too to a place like manipal or leaving  manipal after 5years to come back to another different city in kerala  to study more. Never have I had doubts about friends and family I am leaving behind cause I knew I would always love and be in touch with people I really wanted to and the new place always excited me about the new possibilities new people and the yet another fresh start. But when you become a mom I realise lot changes. You are concerned or nail bitingly worried about how SHE is going to be.You are worried if, choosing the betterment of your career comes at a price you might not have expected or been willing to pay if you had realized earlier. But concerns aside,  moving on is something everyone has to do whether we are so bogged down by the situation that we don't wanna move, or not. You always have to go ahead in life,

2018, I know,  is gonna bring me a lot of tests and tribulations I am not sure I am ready to deal with yet. You plan something  and then a higher power decides, "let's change the game". 2017 had lots of ups and downs. Sad thing is, you  remember the downs more clearly than you do the ups. You remember when and how you have been let down by people better than how they came through. You pretend you don't but you do! Each and every day as you grow older you realise the time which has been given to us is transient. You are here today and tomorrow you aren't, how do you make your life count then? The plans you so diligently make all seem so superfluous in the face of reality. How you choose to remain when the truth dawns on you  is totally upto you,  make most of each day or be angry about the time you might or might not get. You realise the most important people in your life are the ones who let you down the most but u slap a bandage over the wound and pray it hol