on being older but not any wiser..

ok so y is that birthdays are such a big deal? its not like it reminds of how much yonger and better the life is getting but just reminds us our growing disillusionment with life.. u r 4 and ur bday cake is all u worry about.. by 12 u think about the gifts u might get.. by 18 u r obsessed with who forgot your bday and by 22 u arent happy with anything! :P dont get me wrong, bdays are my favourite, its your day wen u are made to feel extra special by the people around you.. when they go the extra mile for you and in the last 22 yrs except for maybe 1 bday i hav never been unhappy.. but thn i am generally a happy person and yes i do hav witnesses to coroborate! :D
but sometimes i think its about time i have gotten over my almost childish happiness at bdays.. but then every year i think next year and tht hasn happened yet, doesnt mean it wont happen next yr! :D i share my bday with my mom.. by wierd twist of our life lines, both of us were on the same day and i look exactly like her also, apparently! well better to share it with your mom than anyone else :P and yes sometimes i am not good at sharing even though i would like to think of myself as un unselfish person :D whatever helps us sleep at night rite ;)
so yeah this bday was loads of fun too :) i think manipal bdays have always been fun for me..all thanks to my friends who think i am worth the trouble :-) some disagree, but i know deep down that they know i am :P
to get back to " on being older and not any wiser.." well i do feel older.. does not help matters that i am in my most senior batch in my college and i hav4 sets of juniors to call me chechi!!!! and no i donot feel any wiser, unless i hav developed more grey cells and not realise it, i am still the me who was here 4 yrs back! yes, its been 4 yrs in this tiny place and yes, i got my dream studyng town and no, i dont regret MOST moments here..and i yes, i have more dreams i am dying to run behind and no, i am not any wiser on whether i am wiser! :D
happy birthday to me! :d

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Giby Varghese said…
wonderful writing...
It is said
"Intellectual thoughts, like facial wrinkles, grow more prominent with age."
:)
Might be that is the reason why you are thinking so much on growing one year old... :)
7:05 AM
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